Here We Go.

I've wanted to write for so long.

But I don't have the words.

My journal is even pretty empty.

All I can say is that things are still changing.

• Spring semester has already proven to be more difficult; more time-consuming; more effective; more exciting; just MORE.
• Tutoring a 6th grader, who would have thought I could even do that. It's been a blast...definitely tests my patience. But I am in love with it. I am in love with kids and the one on one time with Joseph, who is actually a sweetheart that wants to make me happy and proud.
• My internship at an elementary starts today...I have my teacher outfit picked out. I laughed when I realized that the majority of my wardrobe could be considered "teacher-wear".
• I am very content with being single right now. And I am actually serious.
• In the shower I sliced my finger open with a strand of wet hair...
• Today I praise God for repentence and His forgiveness and for being SO involved in my life. Also for new friendships that look promising.

Thank You Father for your satisfying peace.

Progress

My Jesus, You satisfy.

He really does.

The other day I was experiencing some familiar feelings. Ones I really wasn't expecting to feel.

You know how sometimes you just want a specific someone to accept you, pay attention to you, admire you?

So you seek acceptance, attention and admiration from that person.

But it's never completely satisfying is it?

Remembering the truth that Jesus is the only One that can satisfy is hard.

But once realizing that truth, it is SO freeing.

Jesus DOES satisfy. I don't know why I feel so surprised when I hear that.

Of course He satisfies. He is perfect. He is beautiful. He is loving. He is LOVE!

Anyway, I am just really overwhelmed by that truth these past days and wanted to share.

Pleasures and Blessings...

I wanted to share with you some photos I've been taking with my new lenses for my camera phone. I got a new phone recently with a better camera! Praise God! And it was free too...so that is pretty cool. The camera is so good on it that I am actually able to print the photos that I take with it like I would with my own camera. Pretty crazy right Sarah?! But I feel so glad because so often, there is an image I want to capture and I won't have my camera. Now I have this better camera phone and super cool lenses.

Also, I just wanted to take this time now to really thank God for answering prayers. Even the prayers I hadn't even formed into words yet.

The past few weeks I have been so blessed with conversations which have completely uplifted me, encouraged me, and have put so much truth back into my life.

I praise God for the amazing people he has placed in my life. I praise Him for giving me the strength and willingness to be honest about everything, even embarrassing things, with those people. With new friends as well. I praise God for giving me authority and for even giving me the option of truth to choose every single day and the strength to choose it! I choose the truth!

God knows me more intimately than a husband would his wife and His love is overwhelming.

All the ways You have blessed me LORD, how do I even deserve them?

From a Walt Whitman poem "When I heard the learn'd Astronomer"
Using my macro to focus in on the detail the coffee man put on top of my almond mocha.

Here is what it looked like from further away.

Towards the end of the drink, it turned into a heart.A blurry James Mathis.

Fish-eye lense on the walk from school to the apartment.

The next two are from an antique musical thing I received as a graduation gift from a friend. I used my macro lense.

Sleeping Winters

97% of the time, Fiji is sleeping.
You can tell Sophie gets a little tired of it.

Sleeping Wieners

My butt is very numb after sitting on this hall floor for the past hour.

I took two exams today, which means I am finished with two classes.

I absolutely love this feeling.

Now, I go home for the next few days to spend time with Mommy.

Joy.

It was absolutely freezing this morning...I walked to school at 7:30, it felt like it was 20 degrees. Jack Frost was nipping at my whole face. I seriously just need a beard.

These poor cheeks.

The end.

New Excitement!

I got some awesome lenses for my camera phone! It came with two lenses; one is a fisheye lense and the other serves as a macro lense AND a wide angle lense! I was sooo excited to receive them! It was one of my happiest times!

My flowers are popping up!!!

Gingerbread men!!!
The beautiful sky! Ready to snow.

Here's my happy face!

Hello, December

"I looked at my hands to see if I was de same person now I was free. Dere was such glory ober everything, de sun came like gold trou de trees, and ober de fields, and I felt like I was in heaven." -Harriet Tubman

I had a dream this morning while I was still asleep. I was in Kenya with my team. It was different though. And I didn't know where I was. The place was unfamiliar. I was afraid for some reason. I didn't know why. Then all of the sudden I was in a river surrounded by rocks and I was so petrified because even in my dream, I could not swim. So I was clinging to the huge red rocks as the the river was sweeping me away. I remember seeing my wet hands and fingers and nails, scratching, trying to grip. But I could not climb, I was so weak. I was crying.

It was really scary.

Now, I'm not really one to try and "decode" my dreams. I think it's silly. But, I do believe that sometimes they can be symbolic. And it's obvious to me, what the symbols in this dream meant.

I feel so selfish asking for your prayers. Because I understand that there are other needs in this world. Other people in more need than I.

But I would appreciate your prayers. For strength, motivation, peace, and patience.